Headache

I have a big headache today. I need to get stuff done, i need a new shirt for a wedding tomorrow. I also may need some pants so today could be hectic. Tomorrow is going to be our first full night away from milo. I'm kindof scared. I'm sure he'll be ok, but it's a little nerve wracking. I watched Halloween last night care of a guy who can get you that type of stuff. It was very good in the begining and dragged towards the end. I don't know if it was the final cut the date on the title was may 17th. Michael Myers is resurrected by Rob Zombie. There is a joke somewhere in there ... Zombie ..dead. Malcolm McDowell was in it. He's so cool. He even threw in a few wheezing "michael"s in there ala Donald Pleasence from the original Halloween movies. I hope i can look as good as him when i'm old.... Malcom McDowell not that other guy. The whole Myers clan is involved and little michael is crazy. Amy loves Rob Zombie films. I'm not sure if i like them or not they are good cheesy thriller movies, but it gets a little old. Zombie creates these trashy horrible characters that do exist in our society. I think that is what was scary about the Devils Rejects. Some parts of that film you could totally believe could have or has happened to people....that's just creepy. Rob Zombie casts his wife alot in these films. She has a ridiculous laugh in house of 1000's corpses. Yeah so i guess i like rob zombie films too. I think he should make a zombie film....that just seems right.

amy

My wife is back to work today being a autism aide. She's really good at her job and she really has a lot of info about autism behavior so check out her blog

Or her BRAND NEW Working with Autism Page

I really love her and i miss her. Check out those sites if you get a chance.

Money Money Money

Total spent on helping Katrina victims $114 billion.

Total spent on helping Iraq $432 billion

Back to work

Today is Amy's day to go back to work. It's just me and milo today. I'm really excited. I'm up early so i can make some potatoes for breakfast. I can't wait to get my snuggle pig all to myself. I know it's selfish, but i can't help it. He's so cool. We'll wrestle and he'll pull my hair, we might go to the thrift store or the crazy new book store/ collectable/ weird thing store that opened in town recently, maybe we'll go to the library or to the beanie baby guy and buy some records. All this and new episodes of survivorman on the science channel (the poor man's discovery) should make for a great day. I'll keep you posted.

my favorite tv show

I really make an effort to not watch much tv. One channel i do put on most is current tv. It's a news type network with journalists (usually younger) cover topics that interest them. They have many interesting stories that are short and are called pods.
Today, being the two year anniversary of Katrina, there was a long show on this guy going around when new orleans was flooding. There were many times where i thought he would get stuck and not make it out. I guess i had some sick side of me that wanted him to get stuck and see what he would do to get himself out. The next pod was about these hotels in argentina where couples go to "get it on" called "telos". The "Telos" are basically nice rooms to rent out for a short time for a little private time. These are nessessary because most people in argentina do not live on their own. Some are themed room and cost $15 for 2 hours.
This is odd because of where i was when i first heard about the hurricane. This was a little different than most people hearing about it. Amy & I were at the philadelphia folk fest that weekend and then we went to a "romantically themed" Hotel to rest up on Monday. I had no idea the hurricane hit until late monday evening. We went out to eat and we noticed the gas prices were way up. When we got back to the hotel i checked out the tv and there we saw the horrible images of the hurricane. It's still messed up in New Orleans after two years, i think that is a shame. It was a really nice place, but that is what will happen to you when you build a city underwater. Note to any new city planners: if you have to walk up steps to see the river, consider revising your location.
Anyway current manages to get into my brain and link two seemingly unrelated items. Way to go current. They are now introducing me to bacn. Being a vegetarian i do not like my junk mail being refered to a another pork product. Does anybody have religious objections to this?
Moscow will have complete traffic gridlock by 2011 you will not be able to drive because with the fall of communism parking laws are no longer in effect. Something to think about. No not really. Amy goes back to work tomorrow so i might not blog for a bit or blog way too much.

Singer Slant O Matic

So amy has this beast of a singer sewing machine that has been collecting dust for awhile in the basement. It's one of those weird flip into a table ninja style singers. I wondered when she was going to do anything with it. Amy and I found out the fabric store in town is going out of business so it was a good time to get some cheap fabric to cover our couch for milo puke. When we got there amy stated she wanted to make some pillows for our pillow room. I asked if she really thought she could have the time to hand sew these things. She said she would use her sewing machine. I completely forgot she had a sewing machine. I asked if she knew how to use it and she said she wasn't sure how to thread it but could look it up on the internet. We found out there are roughly a few million versions of singer sewing machines. Ok maybe not that many, but at least 500 because this singer is the 500a . I guess there are 501 singers because of the 500 A singer . It's actually titled " Side Slanting Singer 500 A Rocketeer" which is the best title i have ever heard of for a sewing machine. There really wasn't anything on this sewing machine on the net. Amy tried to no avail to get this thing going, but could not find any info on how to thread the machine. Later, when i should be going to work i went off to the fabric store to see if i could find Singer 500 a threading instructions. I was trying to be an awesome husband guy. I made sure i kept repeating the 500 a part so i would know what make and model for the surprise gift of threading instructions, which is every girls dream. The store actually had a huge book of singer sewing machine instructions that looked really used and old. The kind old lady behind the counter told me to be careful because there are like "1000's of singer sewing machines i hope you know the type." I responded with a cheesy radio announcer voice, "why would I use anything but the classic ninja style Side Slanting Singer 500 A Rocketeer ?" I couldn't believe i remembered the whole name i was shocked. C'mon Side slanting Rocketeer? She looked confused and probably didn't care as she will be losing her job shortly when the store closes. I looked through the massive singer catalog of instructions and found her lovely 500a instructions had been removed by some careless sewing vandal. Our friend LeAnne found some directions, she said on the internet but maybe she ripped the 500 a instructions out of that book. Amy and her figured it out and made a pillow. It's really nice and amy has a picture of her awesome Side slating Singer 500 a Rocketeer on her blog. We made this site for instructions.

Too much of a good thing

Amy will be going back to work. It has been a great time with her home. I am still really tired, but i know with her going back to work we are in for another grind. Week in and week out it will be tough to keep the demands of the full time stay at home dad. Thankfully she will be starting on a thursday then with the labor day we'll have some time to adjust. We do have a wedding to go to and milo will be spending his first night away from us. This should be very interesting. What are we going to be like when we are not near him for maybe 24 hours. It will be very weird. I hope we enjoy it and aren't all freaked out. I know milo will have a good time. He really likes people. We were at the asian grocery store and this lady was speaking Korean (?) to him and he loved it. I guess it all sounds the same to him. He really likes the colors in the asian grocery store, he likes looking at the vegetables. I caught him in the sprinklers above the vegetables he was shocked and trying to touch the water, but he was getting too wet we had to move along. I got a good new age book on past lives, i don't know if i believe in the idea yet, but it is fascinating to think you may have had past lives. Milo is starting to figure out his voice. That is loud gotta go.

my wife has a blog

Yes, my wife has a blog.
www.amytriesblogging.blogspot.com

I will now spend actual time with my family.

So this has nothing to do with being a dad

My other job, which is managing a telemarketing office (please hold all boos untill the end.) gave me something interesting to take away my few reamining iq points. I have an individual who works for me and he is a whiner. He is in his late fifties and takes every oppotunity to try to lie and rat out his fellow employees. For the past few weeks i know he was smoking in the Men's room. I do not have a problem with cigarrette breaks and i do not believe i have ever denied one. I also do not mind bathroom breaks either, having mostly male employees in their fifties means most people are up at least once an hour. What does bother me is smoking in the bathroom for no good reason. There are signs quite clear to the fact no smoking is allowed and other people use this building and it sucks for the non smoking people. The office is on the second floor and the men's room is on the first floor, you actually pass the doors to go outside and have a smoke. You have to walk more to get into the bathroom.
On thursday Mutt X ( mens room smoker) was pissed at Mutt Y for various reasons. I took him outside to talk and let him know everything was OK. Then Mutt X ( sneaky smoker) tells me that Mutt Y told him, " Don't tell anyone, but i smoked a cigarette in the men's room."

This makes my head split. Literally there was at least 3 of me at this point.
ME #1.......Fire him right now.
ME#2 ....... I can't believe this ************** is trying to get me pissed at someone else for his BS.

ME #3....(this is the newer version) I still can't believe this, but calm down and let's have fun with it.

I went with #3 and decided to go on a little tirade about what an idiot Mutt Y (non smoking men's room guy) for smoking in the men's room. I went all out...using everything i could think of to call this person horrible things. I love when an opportunity happens where you can tell someone off to their face and have them agreeing with you or adding how stupid their own behavior is and them really not understanding you are actually talking about them. He even added , "How stupid can you be? The sign even says 'This is a non smoking building'" then added his catch phrase, "What is wrong with these people?"

I went on to explain how i was unable to really say anything, because without catching anyone it always breaks down to the "He said, He said" type of crap which only gets people angry at each other rather than solve the problem. Which might still go on, even worse if they are out to get someone else into trouble. I could foresee someone smoking a cigarette just to blame on someone else.

On Friday approx. 6:25 pm Mutt X goes to the men's room. I know he's going to smoke a cigarette in there and i will have to catch him and be all stupid. I wait for a minute or 2 and ask everybody else if they are smoking in the bathroom. The answer all came back "no". For all of their faults they usually come clean without any problems. So now i go downstairs to catch Mutt X.

Now, you can hear the doors closing upstairs in the building while you are in the men's room, i expect this might cause him to lock the door or put his cigarette out. I go downstairs and think he's locked the door or he might be in the stall and still try and blame someone else. What would i do then? How could he even do that without making my head explode?

I grabbed to door knob and went into the room trying to startle him a little bit.

He was standing in front of the mirror ashing into the sink. When i came in he acted as though he was a 14 year old kid and i was the high school principal. I was just so sickened by the stupidity. That hurts my head so bad. Why the next day? why not 2 - 3 days from now? why in front of the mirror? why? why? ouch.

Battle of the sexes + Limoncello

So amy had her teacher friends over last night for some games. That was very enjoyable. We had a lot of fun i'm really good at bored games and i know that is such a great skill but sometimes it bothers me. It seems like other people don't want to play when i'm in the game. Everybody seemed to have fun and teachers can really drink. Limoncello was on the list as well as wine and some other mixers. Amy had quite a bit of limoncello and that made her a little sick.
That meant amy was too hung over to get up this morning. So milo and were hanging out on the couch watching some three stooges. We got bored with that but i couldn't venture outside just yet. We started watching the show intervention and when the intervention took place milo started laughing when the family started crying it was very funny. I didn't want to get up so early but milo really wanted to get up. Now the day should be interesting amy is watching her Big Brother stuff and i'm getting some stuff done..

So sleepy.

I heard the weather was supposed to nicer and a little warmer. Milo and i were up early and ventured out to get some things done. Milo was puking all down the snugli and myself which was not the happiest experience. I went to pick up pictures and stop by a notary. I got a cup of coffee and walked around town. It was really not exciting. I think i will go to the antique book store and get me some old postcards.

Bush , vick, iraq, walmart

So i read on google news that The bush administration is trying to cut children out of health insurance in the us. In Massachusetts, where people seem to care about this, Sen. Kennedy is trying to fight this change. Apparently, the administration wants to cut back the federal insurance programs from those children in households that are 250% over the fedeal poverty level. This would lead some kids to be cut from the program. I am not sure what to feel about this. I think healthcare is very important especially for kids. Amy and i have insurance and it still costs $15 everytime we take Milo to the doctor. I am all for kids having insurance, but not for government BS. I don't understand why they always go around in circles.
Michael Vick will not play in the CFL. I guess that leaves Arena or if american gladiators is still around that would be cool. They could call him mutt.
Iraq is still messed up, but fred thompson and barack obama talked to some vets and each told them what they wanted to hear in different ways. I'm sick of Fred Thompson. How can you run for the leader of the US and not really say if you are or aren't. What type of leader is that?
Walmart is still trying to get their hands on the ipod download business. They censor too many things. Don't shop there for that reason or many others. Walmart really blows.
Anyway i look forward to correct running google. and more blogging and hanging out with the coolest people i know.

Google lovin

Now it's back. I liek this without all of the freezing. Milo is starting to poop. He doesn't like this whole thing, he has been freaking out everytime he has to go. It is horrible because he's uncomfortable and screaming, but funny at the same time because he'll start straining and then screaming. The only thing i can think to do is to offer him a magazine or just tell him it's ok. This is one of the many thing people do not tell you about parenthood. The joys of helping someone through the scary ordeal of pooping for real. I don't think my day will have much more progress than that so good night everybody.

google this

Yeah so it's been rainy and cold. I have been feeling the same way all dark and misarable. I have had a headache for two days. It has been very annoying and now for somereason google has been experiencing technical difficulties with me. I don't know why but it keeps freezeing up on me. I love google and all of their products, but this is annoying. This blog was the first one i could get out and it has frozen up about 4-5 times. I must do something else now. I hope this postss

Today the weather is very nice

It's a total shame how the weather is such a factor to me now. I don't think it really was before i had a baby it was just there. Sometimes it was difficult if i wanted to go for something outside and it was raining but it really was no big deal. Now if it looks like rain i know Milo will be having a very cranky day. I believe this is a good thing without worrying about all of the other things in life to worry about you can actually focus on the weather. Is it going to rain? is much better than is the traffic bad, will i be late today, is that really cute girl going to be at the counter at wawa, will they be out of the french vanilla cappuccino? Those types of questions still enter you mind and even now when i wake up my first thoughts are about my job, even though i will not be there for at least 9 1/2 hours. It's pretty sick when you think about that. I am sure that i will miss having the money, but i will never regret being here for my child. Besides debt can be fun.

New stroller and hair.

The weather looks very dreadful today. This has been so wonderful having amy at home. Getting things done around the house has been wonderful. We went for a nice walk yesterday and picked up a stroller from the thrift store. It cost $10 it's in decent shape and now i won't have to have Milo strapped to the front of me. I still will use the snugli for most times because the stroller is an ordeal by yourself. Ususally walking the stroller down the front steps with milo screaming in the background is very stressful. The reverse happens when you get home. It can be very frustrating. Amy wanted to dye her hair blue since she has off for alittle while. I told her she wouldn't find blue dye at the riteaid, but sure enough it was there. We walked inside the store for a whileto let Milo cool off and we opened the cooler doors and pretended to look at some soda while he was cooling off. The best place i have found is the wlak in cooler at the beer store. That is the best place to cool your baby. When we got home we realized the hair dye was really for short hair so we used some left over purple manic panic we had and i gave her a nice purple with blue streaks look that is all the rage these days. I wonder when milo will want to dye his hair.

Things Are great

This is a wonderful time. Amy has a 2 week vacation from her job and she can be home to help. She took Milo out all day yesterday i got so much yard work done. I think yesterday was the most productive day i have had in a long time, also it was a day i did not blog or go on the Internet. I wonder if that is just a coincidence. Eagles start their preseason so everyone at work can talk about that for awhile. I know donovan mcnabb will be gone soon enough, maybe michael vick won't be busy. Milo is about 5 months and it's really geetting great i am just catching up on my sleep that was gone for te past few months. Milo has been growing so much and has started solid foods. That helps him be calmer longer. I think all of the growing really wears that baby down and the solid foods help him stay nourished. The cloth diapers will take a beating, but i am willing to stick it out the whole way. I just think it's better for the environment than to throw out bags and bags of trash. We throw too many things out. Everybody along my alley has tons of trash it's really a shame. i still have a tons of yardwork to do so i must get back. Nice to see you again.

Lottery

Amy, Milo and i went walking last night. We were talking about money or really how to survive and amy mentioned we need to win the lottery. I thought that was pretty silly, since we have won a few bucks on those scratch off tickets and we haven't cashed them in. I think they have been on our refrigerator for months. After Milo went to bed last night amy and i had a daquari and basically that was enough. We fell asleep about 9:30 and woke up at our normal 6:30. Amy has off for 2 weeks and we are trying to use that time to finished all of the projects we have half started. Sleeping is a major project that we have not been doing very well. I think we have to bite the bullet and just get to bed earlier. Normally we get to bed around 11 which is decent sleep, but we are still very tired.
This morning we were determined to cash those lottery tickets, even if just for the principle of wanting to win the lottery, but not even cashing them in. We decieded that since amy is home food shopping would be alot easier, so we made a list and headed out to the supermarket. When we arrived there we realized we forgot the lottery tickets. This is what it's like to be parents. You are so tired and overwhelmed you act just plain stupid.

Get out there

Milo has been very frustrated today. Amy and i have taken a few walks went out to breakfast and even hanging out by the garden and pond in the back yard. Milo is still a little out of control. We even wrestled around for awhile. Nothing seems to work out today.
Amy did say something good about the whole idea of Barry Bonds. Why couldn't people appreciate this drugged out guy hitting home runs as we appreciate drunk or other messed up performers? I think it could be just the answer to the whole problem i guess that's why i married her, she's really smart.

Baseball

This week has been very long. Lots of things seemed to go on. Daddydom threw the first ethical curveball my way. When i became a father i noticed things were in a different perspective almost like a pause and thought "how would i tell milo what i thought of something and remain consistent." This is difficult with what happened in baseball.
Barry Bonds made sports history and i am not sure how i feel about the whole issue. It seeems to me that either he used some sort of growth enhancing product or just did loads of upper body and face stretching exercises. Living in the Philadelphia area the local sports commentators are really angry about this record being broken by a "cheater". I don't really know if what he was doing was cheating. If Major league baseball does not test for these type of explosive growth "enhancement products" is that really cheating? Now i really do not have a good reference, since the philly sports guys are as frustrated as most ED men were before viagra, but is it? Is it cheating to utilize something that was not availiable to people who broke the record? What if Bonds had surgery that was not availiable a few years back, would that be cheating? Who wouldn't want a few years on the back end of a sports career? He is only human ( maybe he is working on that one) so why blame him for wanting to go after a record. He seemed to improve after he got older, but hand eye coordination is a skill that stays with you as you get older.

What should i tell milo? Should i tell him that he hit more home runs than anyone else because he used something that gave him an unfair advantage, but wasn't discouraged by the people around him? He did something that helped bring attention to MLB and his own career in a very greedy selfish manner and should be applauded? I guess this is a reason for the problem with a guy like Bonds, you can't tell your child to be like him. Strive for things and get them at any cost, your health, integrity, be famous and your problems will go away. MLB really messed this one up, they should have done something about this. This record is sacred not that it should never have been broken, but it is in my opinion the biggest record of all time in baseball. How many people know who has the most triples? If this is a tainted record MLB would look very stupid. Matbe someone else will break this record and i won't have to worry about that one. Now on to the fact my wife and i enjoy the music of, Nirvana, Sublime, Jimi Hendrix, Janice Joplin, Evan Dando, Billie Holliday..........

good things come.....

I went out for a walk with Milo this morning. It was very nice outside. We walked through town and visited a few places to window shop. We walked through the post office to get cooled off and there amazingly was no line, so everyone walking past the counter from the back asked "can i help you?". I really had no response. You really can't say "No thanks, i'm just browsing." So i got a voter registration card and pretended to read it.
We went to the thrift store and were there before it opened. There was a nice stroller outside for $5 but it seemed to be a little broken. Milo liked it. This lady with her granddaughter came up to us and started talking about how awesome her stroller was. I really didn't need this conversation at all. This is a great reality for the stay at home dad.... that feeling of "How did i get here?". I am standing in line waiting to get into the Thrift Store? What? Why are you talking to me about features of your stroller? I understand your stroller is better than the $5 one on the sidewalk. I know your stroller is an Eddie Bauer.. I KNOW YOUR STROLLER COSTS $3oo. I really don't care. I struggled to talk to her granddaughter who was about 9 -10 months old, but this lady kept going on. She didn't take the obvious clue of Let's talk about your baby there because you are boring me. Thankfully the thrift store opened and i was let inside. That was nice. On the way home we took the longer way and we found $20. I don't know if that's kharma or whatever. I'm not sure the $20 was worth that annoying lady but it does take the sting away.

Once again with the heat.

Whew. Sure is hot today. This morning milo is in a better mood after finally napping for about three hours last night, he went to bed and slept through untill 6:30 am. He's seems to be feeling better and in a better mood. I am way too sleepy still.

Food shopping has to be done. Since i have figured out that i should pay bills and transfer the money when i go food shopping i sat down to do bills this morning. Milo was on the floor rolling around and before my wife went to work she was playing with him a little bit and got him a little wound up. As i finished the bills i informed Milo that " We are going to have none of that junk today." I think he was paying attention because he did calm down.

Food shopping is great. The people in the morning are so much nicer than the times i would always go shopping before. It strikes me as an odd thing because they are the same people i would see at night or on the weekends, they are just way happier. Milo goes through the checkout line like a rock star. The cashiers all wave him over. They are really excited to see him and he's always fast with a smile. They love talking to him and today milo was in a very talkative mood. His language consists of "goo" "ooo" and the occasional "baab", but he seems to enjoy conversations.

I am now in the habit of bringing a calculator to the store and adding up all of my purchases. Just because i never really kept track of it and that was bothering me. I have kept track these past 2 times and it has been dead on. Is this the sign of some mental issues? I don't know, but i think it's time to head out to the mall milo is screaming.

Milo still won't listen

Milo is so tired and angry about it. This is very frustrating as it is so tough dealing with milo being sleepy and yelling. My wife came home and she's tired too. It is rough not getting a break from the little guy. I can't take the yelling i must soothe him. I hope he enjoys this type of attention later in life. Maybe he'll be the greatest guy in the world or at least he'll mow the lawn a few times when he gets older.

Sunshine superman

Today there is a heat warning in my area from noon today untill 8pm tomorrow. Milo and i went out for a nice morning walk. Everything was fine untill we returned home. He was tired and wanted to eat which is never a good combination. He has started on some oatmeal and he really doesn't like to have me feed him. I have tried the whole " i really love oatmeal!!" routine. That seems to work for a little while, maybe 2-3 spoonfuls, but then the screaming starts again. Oatmeal goes flying. My annoyance increases. It's amazing how the screams of your baby make you go insane in little spurts. I gave him as much oatmeal as i could and gave him some milk, then burped him and he puked right down my shirt. He finally now fell asleep he looks pretty cute but today he has been exhausting and it's not even 11 am. I believe today will be rough. I can understand how some people get very frustrated being a stay at home parent. It's a very rough job sometimes and you really do not get scheduled breaks. You will always have something to do, and always something not getting done. Then you blog.

Liquid disapointment

I am not happy about the rain this morning. That means i will have to find something to do with my little guy today to keep him from being upset. It should be clearing up, but then it will be very humid. Milo does not like the heat he gets very fussy. I am glad to be rid of the big bulky stroller we had, but only having a snugli means that when it's hot i'm left with a little heater on my chest. He usually leaves a baby shaped sweat mark on me. I hope i can get to the library today so i can get a book out. It's not like i have loads of time to read (when will i ever?) but i do like to try some reading sometimes. I would like to read "rich dad, poor dad" it seems more like a reference book to me. If i can get milo to be rich maybe he will buy us a shore house when he's older. Is that too much pressure? I really don't have much time to worry about money, which is nice. Mostly i'm too busy dealing with the day-to-day issues of the baby care. Work has definetely taken a back seat. Sometimes i still find myself stressing about it, but then the other part of my brain tells me to shut up. There's nothing i can do. Physically i can't work any extra time than i have been. You have to get used to that. Really, your boss has to get used to that idea. You can get yelled at only so much. When you know your limit, that's it. I won't quit, but i do see myself riding into the sunset. Taking them kicking and screaming with me. Usually in the winter i go away to make decent money on the road. That option is completely out this year, as my more important career can not be put on hold. This should be a very fun winter time. I might wind up delivering pizzas, or blogging alot and being a bum. Being a bum never appealed to me.....milo needs me so that is a blog for another time.

Time management

One of the biggest problems I have found in my first 5 months of being a stay at home dad is my time management skills are shot. The ability to stick to any type of schedule is made worse by the lack of sleep. Milo does sleep through the night now he gets up around 6 and Amy feeds him i usually stumble to the coffee maker and get that going, i am no good without 2 cups. Then all hell can break loose. I have figured out that milo enjoys doing something, anything during the morning that gets him out of the house. Even if he is sleeping after eating i must get him out or else he will be fussy when he wakes up and into the rest of the day. We go for walks if it's nice weather or to the mall or home depot, which he loves because of the displays of ceiling fans. Yesterday after i got home from work i gave Amy a break by taking milo out and walking through the mall for abut 2 1/2 hours. There was a Madden tournament and it was great to see these 9 year olds kids beat the 20 year olds. This gave amy time to take a nap and get a little caught up on her sleep. I know i want to get a little more sleep, but there always seems like something i have to do. There is a song called "Always Ready" and sometimes i sing it to myself and i sing "always working", i don't think i am doing that consciously. That is a bit out there. I will have to make some time for just me, or else i will go insane. I might be at that point now. I will keep this posted.

Life is good

It's too hot to do stuff so milo and i headed off to the mall. After walking and lapping the old folks i ventured into the FYE to purchase a cd of a friends band. as i opened the cd i was thinking of how great the feeling must be to be on tour and having a major label cd with videos on mtv and you tube and stuff. I have to admit i was getting a little envious. The rolling stones was playing in the mall and mick sang "you can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes. You might find. you get what you need" I looked down at the smiling face in front of me and i knew exactly what he meant.